The days are going by even faster,
This path that I’ve begun following,
Is leading me ever closer to disaster,
But I dare not consider slowing.
For all of my past may surely catch me,
That eternal, terrible, black, and lonely despair,
Tears are making it so difficult to see,
Nearly impossible for me to even care.
I have lost everything in this life,
My money, friends, family, and myself,
My home, children, and my wife,
Lost, but not forgotten upon that high shelf.
That pedestal that holds all my memories,
Of a wonderful life I used to lead,
Those memories who leave me to my miseries,
No matter how hard I dare to plead.
My pain renews with every hellish sleep,
In a heart shaped maze of razored walls,
Holding onto every emotion that I keep,
No matter who may choose to come to call.
I no longer know how much more I can take,
Each day only serves to bring me more pain,
My smile now fails to be so effortlessly fake,
As I continue to be slowly driven insane.
I feel a true victim of fate,
In a long tear filled flood.
Once again this boiling hate,
Beginning to feel that angry lust for blood.
My love has become a living, seething, rage.
A story I wish had never been told.
Locked inside an ever shrinking cage,
A warming rage and a heart stone cold.
These days continue to blur together,
Everything is different, everything the same.
These things I feel may last forever,
Alongside an endless ocean of guilt and shame.
There is no end in sight to this race I run,
To the sharp pains I feel, these tears I cry.
This hell, I fear, has just begun,
And I’ll live it until the day I finally die. | MDSK